Lately, I have been dreaming...more like daydreaming. It is constantly in my thoughts and never far from my mind.
This daydream is of a baby girl. She has a name, and she is ours. It is a sister for Alexis and Jaxen--and I can't get her out of my mind. I reason her away most days-- but, she sneaks in there whenever she gets the chance.
I convince myself, even if we tried to have her--she'd probably not be a she, but a he. Or, there'd be two of her--then what? So, I guess fear of the unknown keeps me from chasing this daydream.
Am I crazy? Will I daydream of a baby for the rest of my life--would I be satisfied if this baby were born to us?
More kids equal needing more room, and the money split between one more child. More kids means starting over, from the baby stage.
The hardest part for me, is that she has a name this time....I can't get that name out of my mind....
About Me
- Sarah Hamer
- I have been a Stay-at-home Mom 4 years now. I have learned a lot from my son and daughter these few years- they've taught me to find patience where I didn't think I had it and they've taught me that I CAN kiss a dirty, sticky face. I started my own clear stamp line for scrapbookers in July 2010. I live in a small town, near a Starbucks with my husband of 7 years, our 2 babies and our 3 pitbulls.
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